So I have to say that this week has been one of the worst of my entire life. Maybe it wasn't, maybe it's just still so new to me that one day time will diminish the awfulness of it all just as it has other bad weeks. Maybe it's just the icing on a long two years. Sometimes I think Blogs should be called Brags because one doesn't always post "everything" we just put our best face forward and post the good things in an effort to stay positive and concentrate on our blessings. Or maybe it's the fear of being judged that only the good is shared? I've sat here this evening trying not to have a complete break down and instead I started looking back at old photos and remembering past blessings. So I picked a year, the year I got my first digital camera, and decided to Post that year...good things...fun times. A time before drugs, alcohol, courts, arrests, ambulance rides, suicide attempts, tatoos, death threats, distrust and fighting. A time when I didn't pick up the phone and hear, "You have a collect call from an inmate in a Pinal County Facility do you accept the charges?", Back when I wasn't fighting for the life of a son that I love more than my own life. Struggling and fighting for strength and begging a loving Heavenly Father for the ability to just breathe and to be able to wake up to another day not knowing how the day will end. Wondering if my son will disappear again never to been seen or heard from again. Or if maybe next time the tree branch won't break. Yes I'm having a difficult time. I don't like to post the "Bad" things out of fear of judgement and rumors. But there it is and here is 2003 a better time. Looking back and remembering past blessings helps and gives me strength to face the unknown.
RaLee won a barell racing buckle
Kaitlen was the Queen Creek Bulldogs little cheerleading mascot
Going to Royal's football games
Crystal and Wayne
Painting with my grandsons
Taking Kaitlen to the State Fair
Baking Christmas Candy
Crystal looking awesome for Halloween with little William
Going to Schnepff Farms for the October Fest
Traveling to Holbrook for Michaels Missionary Farewell
Christmas Picture
The boys going to the Homecoming Dance
A visit with My brother Mike and his son Pat
Going to the farewell with Royal's purple truck
Teele turns 44
Michael's Farewell...he's going to the Philipines
My brother,Kathy and her son (from Venezuela), and my neice and nephew celebrate Christmas with us!
Taking the kids to McDonald's
RaLee turns 10
Kaitlen gets into mommy's make-up
William wants to be like Grandpa Teele
Grandpa and Grandma "Spoil" Kaitlen for Christmas
Kaitlen Smashes her finger in the door
Road Trip to Holbrook
My Grandson, Wayne, celebrates his first birthday
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